1 post tagged “doubt”

Most possibly the last post for this year! And hasn't it flown past soo quickly. One of the most memorable and enjoyable years I've had even though I've only lived 22 years (and 27 days).

What makes the year so memorable?

1.) Realizing that friends mean so much to me and that they really play an important role in my life.

2.) Reflecting and being reminded that God is in complete control of my life and everything that happens in the world, even in times when I really really doubt that He is in control.

3.) Baking many more times and getting the near perfect (but NOT!) strawberry sponge cake!

Late last year, one NY resolution was for me to keep in consistent contact with close friends and even not so close friends...I don't think I did a very good job. Regardless, God has been in control and has kept on reminding me to think about those people and to be vigilent in my prayers for them!

Uni this year has been very busy and challenging - really trying to juggle time between work, uni, social life, church and ministry commitments (though not in that order of importance!).

Semester 2 has been very choc full of assessments - even more than Cindy's chocolate chip friands! *drool*

It's then that your feel that your friends really share and can understand the hardship and fraustrations that uni assessments can take on you!! *ROAR* Just knowing that your friends are going through the same experiences enables you to plough through it all.

Not saying that God plays no part in my getting through the truckload of assessments! Time management, the prayer support of bros + sis's really gave me the strength and perserverance to get through it.

It was completely worth it - all the literal sweat and tears. But then, I get that phone call from my course co-ord and it really feels like my world has turned upside down. The very first time I've felt that in my life.

Deep down, I really really doubted if this was the way for God to take me.

But I knew that God has intended for me to go down this pathway. God knew the way before and has laid down the path for me. But I don't have to be afraid or wonder if its the right way because God plans everything to shape me and build me up to be like his perfect Son Jesus Christ! :)

That is the only one and sure assurance I have! Romans 8:28 reads

'And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,^[a] who^[b] have been called according to his purpose'

I have read/heard from some source (now unknown to me) that we should present our lives to our father God with our hands wide open. This is because God gives us our lives and everything in it. Everything belongs to him and he has the right to take away or to give us blessings. If our palms are wide open when presenting our lives to him, it will be less painful for God to take away compared to if we presented our lives to God with our palms tightly closed so that God has to wrench and pry our fingers open in order to take something away.

I pray that for the next year and beyond, that we all and myself can live with our palms wide open towards God!

Bloggin off - kwana

P.S Hmm, the tone of voice/blog is not my usual - so next blog will be more cheerful and I'll be posting about the sort of blessings and experiences I've had at SPRTE! Also will blog of baking adventures taken since!

Next on the baking board is:

Lime Chiffon Tart

Garden party themed Cuppies! (ie.cupcakes)